Hiatus

I hate doing this but it needs to be done; if you’ve been following my tumblr you will have seen me post things about how everything feels everywhere. I cannot focus on anything. I feel so jittery and buzzy, like I have had a lot of caffeine or something–or how I imagine it would feel as caffeine doesn’t affect me, so I don’t know really how it feels. I’ve tried to write. I jump from one legacy to another. A sentence here, a paragraph there. If I do write anything longer I delete it because it sounds awful to me.

I don’t know what is wrong. I feel like I am being pulled in a ton of directions right now while spinning on something going so fast I can’t stop. So I am going to take a short break to try and get things figured out. It shouldn’t be more than a week or two. I expect to be back after Christmas but there is a slim chance it will be closer to New Years.

There is also a slim chance I might cancel this story… I really don’t want to, I love gay science carrot SO MUCH!!! But I feel that with as little as I do update it, I don’t know if it will be something worth pushing myself to do. If that makes any sense. If I do cancel it I will at least finish Jacob’s story and just have it be a one shot type of thing.

I hate to say all this but I didn’t want to lie to you guys, and I didn’t want to pull the rug out from under you. I’ve gotten messages before saying how they don’t trust anything new from me because of me canceling so many things and I understand that completely, because I do. I get ambitious, I want to write things then they just fall flat. Please remember that me canceling a legacy is for good reason (minus Falling Colors)–because the story refuses to be written and reading a forced story would be like reading someone’s homework. Now, I can’t say for sure this will happen, only that it might.

Thank you for understanding and I understand for those who are tired of my constant flightiness and problems. I hope you guys have an amazing holiday and if there aren’t any holidays you celebrate this time of year then I hope you have an amazing December.

~sErin